December 26, 2003
Hm... :lick:
*climbed onto the chair, staring blankly at the monitor and seeing myself in it* Eurgh, am I a mess today!!! 
But it feels good, lol. Walking around without any make up, with my hair pulled into a messy ponytail, in my old baggy pants and t shirt - boy, heaven!!! It's my holidays right now, so I can allow myself something like this, hehe. Ooo, no need to get up at 6am, get ready, rush on the bus... Spend most of the day at school... Come home, groan at everything & everyone, make myself dinner and do my homework for the rest of the eve... Then have a short break, and back to studying. Oooo God, I'm on holidays!!! Sleeping as long as I want to, mmm!! I love sleep 
lol No school!!! I still cant believe it, even though it's the second day of my 'oh-so-well-deserved' rest, hehe
Although, doing absolutely nothing gets me in a thinking mood.. I begin thinking about my life, things that happened to me lately.. So, just a few minutes ago, I was thinking about the past year.. I can't believe year 2003 is about to end - the time flied so fast, so much happened.. even too much, I must say...
Mmm, I guess my biggest achievement was getting over Lauri. Gosh, I still can't believe I don't have feelings for him anymore. I had it really bad for this guy
Oh, even after realising he just played with my feelings for him and made fun of them, I still loved him... So, it was a real relief for me when I finally realised it's over... *sob* Do I miss him? Would I jump at the chance of being with him, if i would've got one? 
Hmmm, a few months ago I would've said 'yes', but right now - no, not again!!!
Then... I also met James... I still go 'WOW!! I can't believe it happened!! I can't believe I have him!!!" Since this person appeared in my life, mmmm, what can i say - everything now seems perfect! I wanna treasure every moment of my life, now that I have him. And, have to admit, even if things between us won't work *sighed, feeling one tear rolling down* ahhhhh, well, it's destiny, but I am 100% sure that this love I have for him is the most amazing feeling I ever had and ever will experience...
Maybe, not the best thing to have happened to me this year is the argument between me and Christina... Everything in our small friendly group had changed... Before it was me, Chris, Olja, Kristy, Marie, Julz and her pal Sveta. I used to get on well with Chris, who was my best friend, Kristy and Julz... Although, the past summer changed absolutely everythin'. Me and Olja ( hehe, she hated me badly be4, and i feared her, lol nonsense!! ) became close friends, I begun getting on perfectly with Marie and Sveta, while Kristy turned into a real brainless asshole 
As for Christy... Hmmmm, she met a guy while being away in Russia for summer and became damn bitchy ever since *sigh* By the end of this year our friendship falled out and me and Olja became really close friends...
Another achievement, that is quite important for me - I passed all my exams and got accepted to high school for the next three years, before I'll go to university. I realised that I prefer to study abroad, rather than in Estonia, because the universities here suck. I chose UK, seeing as my english is a bit better than my german or norwegian
Since that desigion of mine was made, I started attending extra english courses, where my english is improving and I made another good friend - Vadim. He's a sweetie, and helps me out with my english, as well as gives me a nice competition!!
I guess that's the main stuff that happened to me during this year *oh, I also learned how to play badminton, lol * And as for now, I had far too much pizza and coke *burp* so, I really need to have a nice lay down in front of the TV 
Current mood:
Current music: some song by The White Stripes
But it feels good, lol. Walking around without any make up, with my hair pulled into a messy ponytail, in my old baggy pants and t shirt - boy, heaven!!! It's my holidays right now, so I can allow myself something like this, hehe. Ooo, no need to get up at 6am, get ready, rush on the bus... Spend most of the day at school... Come home, groan at everything & everyone, make myself dinner and do my homework for the rest of the eve... Then have a short break, and back to studying. Oooo God, I'm on holidays!!! Sleeping as long as I want to, mmm!! I love sleep lol No school!!! I still cant believe it, even though it's the second day of my 'oh-so-well-deserved' rest, heheAlthough, doing absolutely nothing gets me in a thinking mood.. I begin thinking about my life, things that happened to me lately.. So, just a few minutes ago, I was thinking about the past year.. I can't believe year 2003 is about to end - the time flied so fast, so much happened.. even too much, I must say...
Mmm, I guess my biggest achievement was getting over Lauri. Gosh, I still can't believe I don't have feelings for him anymore. I had it really bad for this guy
Oh, even after realising he just played with my feelings for him and made fun of them, I still loved him... So, it was a real relief for me when I finally realised it's over... *sob* Do I miss him? Would I jump at the chance of being with him, if i would've got one? Hmmm, a few months ago I would've said 'yes', but right now - no, not again!!!Then... I also met James... I still go 'WOW!! I can't believe it happened!! I can't believe I have him!!!" Since this person appeared in my life, mmmm, what can i say - everything now seems perfect! I wanna treasure every moment of my life, now that I have him. And, have to admit, even if things between us won't work *sighed, feeling one tear rolling down* ahhhhh, well, it's destiny, but I am 100% sure that this love I have for him is the most amazing feeling I ever had and ever will experience...
Maybe, not the best thing to have happened to me this year is the argument between me and Christina... Everything in our small friendly group had changed... Before it was me, Chris, Olja, Kristy, Marie, Julz and her pal Sveta. I used to get on well with Chris, who was my best friend, Kristy and Julz... Although, the past summer changed absolutely everythin'. Me and Olja ( hehe, she hated me badly be4, and i feared her, lol
nonsense!! ) became close friends, I begun getting on perfectly with Marie and Sveta, while Kristy turned into a real brainless asshole As for Christy... Hmmmm, she met a guy while being away in Russia for summer and became damn bitchy ever since *sigh* By the end of this year our friendship falled out and me and Olja became really close friends...Another achievement, that is quite important for me - I passed all my exams and got accepted to high school for the next three years, before I'll go to university. I realised that I prefer to study abroad, rather than in Estonia, because the universities here suck. I chose UK, seeing as my english is a bit better than my german or norwegian
Since that desigion of mine was made, I started attending extra english courses, where my english is improving and I made another good friend - Vadim. He's a sweetie, and helps me out with my english, as well as gives me a nice competition!!I guess that's the main stuff that happened to me during this year *oh, I also learned how to play badminton, lol
* And as for now, I had far too much pizza and coke *burp* so, I really need to have a nice lay down in front of the TV Current mood:
Current music: some song by The White Stripes
Posted by Alina on December 26, 2003 at 07:53 PM | U luv me,doncha?
Hmmm, got to admit, I never had a journal before.. *i know, i'm dumb* Well, I didn't have one on an english site... Wait, I'm lying, I did - on diaryland.com - but that one didn't last for too long, hehe. And, a few russian journals. Yeah, as you probably guessed by now, I am russian, but living i Estonia, planning to go and study in UK, lol 